Today is the beginning of a new chapter.
Today opens a new door — to a new path.
Are you nervous? Definitely.
Are you anxious + uncertain? You bet.
But if not now, when?
If not today, how long until the next door opens?
Will you face challenges, set-backs + disappointments? Without a doubt.
But it’s time to turn the page.
It’s time to trust God’s path — the path He has chosen for your life.
Yes, the preparation and moments leading up to now have been difficult. You’ve felt a lot of angst. A lot of worry. Like you’re drowning in unshakeable anxiety that’s going to sink you at any moment.
But it won’t.
I know you’re scared. Scared that you won’t be good enough. Scared that you won’t measure up. Scared of change. Scared of the “unknown”. You’re scared to fail. Scared to fall.
You’ve been asking yourself so many questions:
“Will I be able to handle it? And if so, HOW?”
“How am I going to juggle two jobs, class + studying, aggressive ED treatment, + a relationship with a law school student?”
“Will I make it?”
“Will I be content with what I have?“
“Will I ever be happy?”
To be honest… I DON’T KNOW!
I don’t know how you’ll balance it all – but I know God will guide you.
I don’t know what your life will look like after this season – but I know God has something beautiful waiting for you.
I don’t know how it’s going to play out – but I know Who does.
God knows what’s best for you and He already has a plan in place for your life. I believe that He is the best of planners and that there is more in store for you. Although sometimes it feels unbearable, Our Father will never abandon you, even on the days you abandon Him.
He will always be near, especially on the one days you feel as though you can’t carry on and your heart is so torn with anxiety. He will give you patience + an infinite belief that eventually, He’ll give you everything in the most mysterious yet beautiful way ever.
Though your heart may feel heavy right now and your mind may have thousands of thoughts inside, you have to keep going. You have to, no matter how scary + how much of a struggle it may be.
Truth is, there will be days where you will feel strong + capable of fighting your own battles. The battles in your head. The battles in your heart. Then there will be days you feel as though you can’t even lift a finger. Some days you will forget what it takes to fight + survive. Even on these days, when you feel too weak, simply call out to God + trust that He will deliver you.
Trust Him to fight these battles for you, to help ease the angst of fighting alone. Trust that He will protect you from the things you’re not prepared for and defend you from the sneaky attacks of the enemy.
Trust that He will protect your heart when it’s tired, confused, + broken. Trust that He will give your heart a break.
When your legs feel too wobbly to even stand, know that He will pick you up + carry you along the path that leads to happiness. Trust that He will separate your heart from all the battles it’s meant to lose. Trust that His provision is going to win. Don’t fight His will; give all your power to Him.
I know you feel like you can’t fight anymore. You’re exhausted. You’re drained. You’re tired of not being enough. You thought you could do it on your own and you thought you had the tools to win the war but now you aren’t sure. You don’t think your heart can take any more hits + your running out of bandages to cover all these wounds.
At the end of the day, the only one who can help you is Jesus. He’s the only one you can trust to be by your side no matter what time it is or where you are. He’s always there – all hours of the night. He’s in the breakroom at work. He’s in the classroom, during your hardest exam. He’s in your passenger seat, on your drive home.
God is always right there. Just a whisper away. You always have access to Him. He can transform any disappointment, any loss, any mess into something amazing. He can turn it all around at any moment.
Put all your faith in Christ and ask Him to mend the broken pieces, pick you up, brush you off + carry you through whatever may come this season.
If you’re still with me, chances are you may be scared of something, too. You may feel like a total mess right now. I get it. Truth is, there’s always going to be times that you feel like giving up, turning around + giving it all up. But remember this: You are not a failure. You are so worthy + beyond enough. You are on your way to something so beautiful that God has already planned for you. You’ll be proud of yourself someday. Proud that you persisted. Proud that you trusted in His will. Proud that you praised Him through the storms + valleys. And know this: I’m proud of you, too.
Lex – (405-664-1288)